11 Days Past a 2 Day Transfer

One day of hope and fantasy left!
This time tomorrow I will know if my dreams have come true or are over. I hope and pray they come true and all these crampy feelings are early pregnancy signs.
I did an hpt and it was negative this morning. I know if I am PG it could still be to early to show so I have a little hope but not a lot. My girlfriend says I have to be positive but I also have to be realistic. I just want to protect myself a bit. I spoke to my sister briefly just to hear her voice. I feel so lonely and miss her and Mum so much. I didn't let on to my sister, as I don't want her to worry about me. I am making some chicken soup for tomorrow so I don't have to cook. Plus it's my Mum and Granny’s recipe so hopefully it will bring a little comfort.
Tomorrow we will get up an hour earlier to get to the hospital for 8.30.
I should know by tomorrow noon!

Nightmare Weekend

Well the 2-week wait was going fine until Friday (7dp2dt) when I got lower backache and cramps that feel to me like AF is on its way. They continued all day Saturday. I pos on Saturday and it was negative. I have spent most of the weekend sobbing.
Today I'm 10dp2dt and the backache has gone and the cramps have gotten milder but I don't hold out much hope.
Beta is on Wednesday 17th.
On a brighter note we got the go ahead to buy our first home. The home we will become parents in one day!!

7 Days Past a 2 Day Transfer

I am feeling very low and tearful today. I don't think its worked and all of our embryos have gone. We may not get any more. I have lower back ache and cramps. I'm sure this is all signs that they have faded away.
I want to be happy and look forward to good things to come but am finding it so hard.
We just got the green light from the morgage broker for our first home. I am very pleased but can't muster up the joy I know I would feel if we weren't waiting to see if this has worked or not.
I am hoping a trip to Ikea tomorrow will help. We have to choose a kitchen and I do love to shop! I will be nice to focus on something else for the day....

2 Embryos On Board

Yesterday 5/5 we had our last 2 embryos put back. Both frozen at the 2pn stage, defrosted 5/4 at 10.15am and transfered at 12 noon on the 5/5. One 2 cell and 1 4 cell. Embryologist said they looked great.
If this doesn't work DH has agreed to do anothe TESE in August to see if they can find any more sperm (20 odd found last time).
So we are really hoping and praying that they stay and grow this time.
Transfer was pain free and pretty smooth this time.
Beta is 5/17

Last Embryos

DH and I saw our R.E yesterday and I had a scan to check my lining. He was pleased and said we look set for this Friday morning to transfer our last remaining embryos. I had my blood drawn and I am good to go! I am very pleased but also sad that we have no more left in the freezer after this go. I had a bit of a weak moment last night, which then started DH off. After 10 years of coming to terms with our diagnosis and D.I, then to find 22 sperm and achieve 7 embryos it just seems so cruel and unfair if it doesn’t work. We both had a good cry and cuddled. It helped release a bit of tension and brought us closer together.
So I guess, as they say, here goes nothing…..