Thank Heavens AF Is Here.

Af came late last night on cd40 so I'm classing today as cd1.
I thing my Dr wanted me to have one proper period before the FET not counting the 5 day bleed after 1st failed IVF. So I guess the patches were to help build my lining up in order to shed it. I have rang the nurse today and she will call be back with an appointment and protocol once she has spoken to the Dr. I can’t wait to get going on this.

Focus And Be Positive

After a hellish 3 days of personal drama and loss, I am taking a deep breath and concentrating on myself.
Today I start my patches and Yoga DVD and will try and get back a little calm in my life. I have to focus and be positive, have lots of early nights and warm baths. And make sure I’m emotionally healed from our failed IVF in December. I think I will right a letter to my 2 embryos that we will have put back. And then if it doesn’t work I will have something physical to let go of. I felt such loss on the 23rd of December when we got the call from the Doctors. And I had no way of saying goodbye to my 2 little stars that failed to stay and grow within me. It’s a miracle that we even have our embryos, we never thought that they would even exist. But they did exsit and 5 still do. I have to acknowledge their existence and grieve for their loss if they don’t make it to birth. They are part of my Husband who I love dearly and a part of me.
I was very upset over Christmas wondering how I could go ahead with the Frozen Embryo Transfer. I was scared to loose the other 5 we have left, even joking I would like to keep them forever in the freezer that way we wouldn’t have to loose them. But I know I have to give them a chance at life and that its not in my power if they stay and grow or not………

Hooray

Hooray, R.E just rang and said for me to start my Estradiol Patches 5-7days before AF is due, and to wait for further instructions. So looks like it’s all on for FET number 1.

FET a.s.a.p

I have been sitting waiting for DH to receive a telephone appointment from the R.E has been driving me nuts!
The secretary had said there she couldn’t fit us in for a consult until 28th Feb, which is too far away. We had our 1st BFN the 23rd of Dec, AF came full force the same day for 5 days and I’m due her arrival around the same time this month all being well. I am hoping we can do an FET a.s.a.p.

Sick Of Being Sick

I was sick with a sinus infection from the start of my first IVF in November and I’m still not better. My R.E actually suggested we might want to cancel but we declined. Maybe we should have seeing as we got a BFN, but what’s done is done. In order to give the 5 we have left the best chance I am seeing my ear, nose and throat specialist on Monday. I have had reoccurring sinus problems for 6 years and have had enough of being constantly sick so I’m going to insist that he do something to make me well. Once I have seen him I will ring my R.E for an appointment.
I hope they haven’t frozen all of the embryos together either as I was hoping for at least 2 FET’s.
I am going to start a big list of questions for him.