A Merry Christmas to one and all

A Merry Christmas to one and all

I’m okay, just sad and more home sick than ever for my Family in England. We have only told my sister and I miss her so much. Goodness, I held back the tears all day yesterday and then woke at 4am and couldn’t stop. And now I’m typing this, I’ve started again.
I will not post again until the New Year when I come back to try again. We still have 5 more little ones in the freezer.

Negative

Nurse just called and its Negative. I feel a bit numb. I can't wait for my darling husband to come home.

Beta Day

Well I am just up and am getting ready to go get my Beta. I woke at 3 and had to run to the toilet, as I felt so nauseous. I have either morning sickness or my mother in Law has poisoned me!

Backache, Cramps & Sore (.)(.) ......AF on her way!

Well today we are 10 days past a 3-day transfer, tomorrow we go for the blood pregnancy test. Yesterday I gave in and took a home pregnancy test; needless to say it was negative. I had a bit of a cry and lots of hugs from my lovely husband. We haven’t given up hope completely but I’m sure it hasn’t worked. I have backache and cramps and sore (.)(.) I’m sure my period is waiting to start.
We will leave at 7.30 tomorrow morning to get the blood in as early as possible. I think we will probably hear by 2pm. My husband will get the call at work and then ring me. I can’t wait to get it over and done with; all this waiting is a killer.
I love Christmas normally but this year nothing seems real. I just can’t muster up any enthusiasm for anything. I feel so tired I just want to go to bed early, But instead I have to spend the evening with the in laws tonight and put on a smile, (they don’t know that we are trying).

Symptoms?

I have had loads of symptoms but I am still feeling really negative towards us getting a positive. Between 2 and 4 dpt I had waves of nausea, I have had cramps, twinges and very sore (.)(.). Last night I had very strong sense of smell. Normally I have none! I'm sure this is all due to medication and Af on her way. My beta is Friday morning. But I think I will hpt Thursday when I’m 10dp3dt.

I Really Do Love Champagne.

Well I am 7dp3dt as of this morning and feel I might go a little nuts!!
Friday is Beta day and I’m sure I’m not pregnant. I feel like I’ve used up all my luck this year and there is no way it will be positive. What with passing my course, passing my driving test and winning tickets for live 8 I think that’s all my luck out.
I did something really naughty………….I brought 2 hpt’s. And now they are calling to me from the bathroom cabinet. I think I will use 1 on Friday morning before I go for my Beta. Just as a reality check so the phone call won’t be so hard. The other I will save for the next round. Which will be as soon as they let me. I am a big emotional wreck most of the time and cry at the drop of a hat. I really want to try and toughen up before Friday. I'm going to put some champagne on ice on Friday. Either my Dh will get very drunk celebrating or I will join him. And I really do love champagne.

Treatment Protocol

Treatment Protocol - Matched with donor. MESA 12/6
BCP – 11/6-18 0.5 ml Decapeptyl shot 11/18-24 then 0.25ml. 300ml Gonal-F Pen 11/26-30 Start Menopur 12/01-6 Supracyclin 12/5-8. ER-12/9. Retrieved 21 – eggs. ET-12/12. 7 embryos, 2 put back 5 frozen. Progesterone suppositories 12/12 1 in morning 2 at night. Estradot patches 12/12

OUR LITTLE STARS

I drove to the Hospital yesterday for 11am. We parked and then walked slowly to the Maternity Unit. My DH is still very sore and it was his first outing since his MESA. They took us down into the basement of the Hospital and into a little room next to the laboratory. A lovely Lady Dr came to do the ET, I’d spoken to her about 3 weeks ago by phone and she remembered me.
The ET was a nightmare. The opening to my cervix was open but the passage wasn’t and it was tilted at a funny angle. Not so funny for me! She was very nice and kept saying sorry and telling me to breathe and that she had to get them in there. And I’m saying don’t worry just get them in there. DH looked very worried and kept squeezing my had and telling me I was very brave. Finally she got through the cervix and placed 2 embryos in my uterus. One was 8 celled and the other only 2 celled. The Lab tech said that the 2 celled probably wouldn’t make it.
She showed us the screen and I we saw two little white dots that looked like two stars in the night sky. OUR LITTLE STARS.
I drove home half an hour after the procedure and have been in bed ever since.

We Got Embryos!!!!!!!!!!!

We got the call just now from the nurse. We have 7 embryos, 7!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah we can’t believe it. We have to be in at 11am so I’ve got to get a move on.

Egg Removel

I woke up this morning at 5am. I was already and just had to drive down to the bus stop. I caught the 5.45am bus and go to the hospital for 7am for my ER. I was very nervous and all on my lonesome as DH was in no fit state to be of any use. I got taken straight to my room and told to change into my gown, as I was first in theatre. Everyone was so kind to me, especially my nurse Beatrice, she rubbed my legs and told me not to worry and that she would be there when I got back. Everyone kept saying ‘ca vas?’ and then realising I spoke English tried to use their best English to make me feel okay. I went down to Theatre at 7.30am; I had too wait for about half an hour whilst they prepped me. The nurse couldn’t find my veins in my hands, she tried my left had first then gave up and found one in my right hand. My R.E popped his head in and told me not to worry. I was a very surreal experience being wheeled into an operating theatre with everyone chatting in French. They gave my some medication and told me to breathe into the mask and then I woke up about 9am with it all over. At 3 pm the Dr came and told me that they got 21 eggs. Wow the Dr sure can’t count! So now we wait until Monday to ring the nurse at 9am. If we have embryos I will go in at 11am for Embryo Transfer.

Triggered!

I Triggered tonight at 9pm with 2 ampuls of Pregnyl. So now I just sit tight while my ovaries rippen off. I go in on Friday morning for Egg Removel. I don't think my Husband will be coming wth me as he is in to much pain.

M.E.S.A & 3rd Ultrasound

Tuesday the 6th December we woke up and got ready for my Husband to go in at 10am for his MESA procedure. We were running a bit late and got ticked off by the nurses. We checked him in for his MESA Procedure that would take place at 2pm. I got whisked off for an ultrasound and to get my blood work done. The Dr said I had still had about 12 eggs all good sizes and that my E2 level was nice and strong. She then went on to say that I was at risk of OHSS and told me what to look out for. Meanwhile DH was gowned and prepped for Theatre. He went down around 2pm and arrived back at 4.30pm, it was a long wait! He was in high spirits when he came back, with no pain, yet!!! Well as you all know the MESA was just a formality and we were 99% certain that we would be using our donor back up. But would you believe it, the Lab Tech came at 6.00 and told us that out of 4 tissue samples they’d taken 3 had nothing but the last sample had live sperm with tails!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Diagnosed with maturation arrest 10 years ago) To say you could have knocked us down with a feather was an understatement. They had 4 straws to freeze and had already done a thaw test and the sperm survived.
DH is in a bad way since the MESA but we have our fingers crossed that it will be worth it.

2nd Ultrasound

I had an early Ultrasound this morning and blood test. My E2 was 2000 and I have about 12 eggs all measuring about 15-16mm. The R.E was very pleased with me and said I was doing my part well. They booked me into come in on Wednesday morning for another check, but now they want to see me tomorrow morning. I guess to check I don’t hyper stimulate. My Ovaries are really beginning to give me jip. Hooray!!
My darling boy goes in tomorrow at 10am for his MESA procedure. He is so stressed the poor love, he has broken out in psoriasis on his face from all the worry. We will find out straight afterwards if they found anything or not. We are not holding out much hope, and just really want to get Pregnant regardless of how.

1st Ultrasound

Well I had my ultrasound this morning and I had 12 follies, 4 on the right ovary and 8 on the left. The RE said every thing was looking good for my ER to be on Thursday the 8th December. He said he would transfer 2 embryos on a 2/3 day transfer. Yippee! My E2 was 559 this morning after 6 days of stims. He said to carry on with 300 of Menopur until Monday when I have more blood and another ultrasound. He also said that me being a little on the voluptuous side (my wording not his) hadn’t affected my response to the medication. And there was no talk of cancelling because I’m sick so I didn’t mention it. Its all quite exciting, but I must keep grounded. The chances of this working are only about 25%.

Busy Day

Well my Husband had his appointment with the anaesthetist this afternoon. All went well and it is set for Tuesday. He can’t eat or drink anything from mid-night on Monday. I told him I would get him a takeaway from his favourite Indian restaurant after he was home. He seems to be looking forward to getting it over and done with now.
Last night when I came to do the Decapeptyl shot it wasn’t in the fridge. It turned out my darling Husband had binned it. What a spanner!!! We checked with the nurse if it was still ok to use after 24 hours in the warmth and she said it was fine after all. I was so worried that I might ovulate overnight.
Last night I had my last shot of Gonal-F and today I started Menopur. 4 little pots of powder to one of water. DH wants to use 2 of the waters tomorrow so we have more to work with. He reasoned that we were leaving a coating on all of the vials. I think we will ask the Dr tomorrow when we go in for my 1st ultrasound I will also have more blood taken. I can’t wait to see how many eggs I have. I so hope this sinus infection hasn’t compromised this cycle. If it has I guess we will have to cancel.